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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

ughh..

yeah, so the awaited sickness has definitely arrived tonight & my last final's in the morning, ughh...i'm just soo ready to be home tomorrow nightt!!

..like you have noooo idea! :(

i just want my baby..!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

:D

2 dayssss!!!! :)

...almost thereeeeee!
i can't wait to see my babyyyyy ;)

..& in 12 days, i'll be with this bunch! :)

Friday, December 11, 2009

the final run..

i'm officially done with allll my classes! ..as of this past tuesday :)

& now, onto finals..which means.........studyingggg! greaaat! ha
well, the good news is that i only have 3 finals left, because i took 2 of them before Thanksgiving break..so i'm really happy about that! :D i have 2 on tuesday, and then 1 on wednesday..& so when my last final's over with on wed, i'm gonna be heading back up to NY for break! a longgg, nice, well needed, month longgggg break! ;) whoo-hoo!! i'm so ready for a break that's longer than a long wknd, or a week..just to be able to relax and have some down time, as well as hang out and catch up with friends and family.

5 days til NY!
14 days til Christmas!

i can't believe how fast this semester's gone by! and i can't believe how incredibly both fast and slow this whole year's gone by..! it's crazy! i mean, in 9 days, it'll have been 11 months since T and i ended.....to me, that seems like a few days ago, and foreverrr ago at the same time. i can't believe it's almost been a year....... woww..life is crazy, yet simple. we're the ones who make it complicated.

Merry 'Almost' Christmas!! :)

Sunday, December 6, 2009

mi vida pongo en tus manos..

(my life i put/place in Your hands..)

looking back at this year, 2009, there have been so many ups and downs..but in the end, God has allowed things to turn out the way that He had planned.

from the end of a relationship, to new beginnings;
from the death of many friends, to the birth of a new life;
from friendships being lost, to the start of new ones;
from family heartaches, to family relationships being restored..

sometimes i just wonder why God would allow certain things to happen; but then once i'm able to look back at it, i realize and say to myself, why not. if these hurts and tears & trials and tribulations didn't happen, then another part of God's plan might not be able to take place. in the midst of all of these things, we just need to sit down in silence and listen to God...not just talk Him, but listen for HIS voice in the complete stillness; because He is there..we just have to ready ourselves to hear him.

i'm ready to fully give the next year of my life, 2010, to Him; and to allow Him to work in my life and do all that He has prepared for me to do. without doing this, there is no point in trying to make things in life meaningful.

*contentment comes only when God's will comes before our wants..

i want my life to be completely full of contentment in knowing that everything in my life was done for Him, alongside of Him..& never on my own!

hmm..

umm..well......that didn't last too long, now, did it??
the 'snow' already melted, ha :P

i guess i shouldn't really get used to an actual white winter down here, because from the looks of things, it doesn't really seem like it's going to get very white while the semester's still going....haha

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Let it snow! Let it snow! Let it snow!

we finally got our 1st snow here in Lburg, VA :)

whatever the future may hold..

i've been thinking lately.......

you know when you're a little child, you dream and imagine how your life is going to be when you're all 'grown-up'? well, i know i always did. i always pretended i was married to my prince charming, and had kids and a big, fancy house with a white fence in front...Ooo, and a dog..can't forget the dog.

but i think as you get older, and things start to fall into place (or some things fall out of place) we begin to realize that we need to see the bigger picture.

i know i'm still young, and i still have hopes and dreams of having a family one day with a Godly man who i fall in love with; but until then, i'm really beginning to see that there are so many other things that need to be higher priorities at this point in time...

As i see people around me, and other relationships, it makes me look at my life and really put into perspective what i have been desiring and the desires that God has placed in my heart. i don't want to seek after the things of this world that i may want to, but to pursue the things that He has given to me for desire. this includes any possible future relationships.

relationships....something that has been on my mind a lot recently (especially while being at liberty, because they tend to push/encourage dating relationships, ha). and the more that i look back at my past relationships, the more i am able to see the stages that i was at in life.....

....but i guess i'm just going to jump to a point, because i'm not exactly sure if i know how to build up to it right now at 1:23 in the a.m. haha...but sometime in the midst of school, and meeting all sorts of new people, and just being out on my own..i've really actually been sort of content with it just being me right now and not feeling like it's extremely important to have someone. i mean, it's been just me for almost 11 months now, and that seems a little strange sometimes because he was one of my very best friends...(as cliche as that sounds, ha), but it's so true!
...but right now, i really just feel like God is telling me that things would be alright if i were to end up not being with someone, because His plans are soooo much bigger than i could ever dream of or think of on my own. and just by knowing that, it gives me a peace. so i guess what i'm trying to say, is that if God's plan comes down to that, i am going to be content, because i want to experience all that God wants me to; and go wherever God leads me to go. this is the most important thing.

so, with this being said (& written), i am honestly going to be content with whatever God has in store for my life...& i can't wait to see what the future that God has for me, holds!! :)

night!